Cherophobia

"Cherophobia is a phobia where a person has an irrational aversion to being happy. The term comes from the Greek word “chero,” which means “to rejoice.” When a person experiences cherophobia, they’re often afraid to participate in activities that many would characterize as fun, or of being happy." 

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Assalamualaikum. Hi :)

Phew, it has been quite some time since the last time I wrote. My last few weeks has been such a big mess. I have a lot to catch up with my assignments, my life was hit by a tornado and my health is not in the best condition too. But anyway, I'm good. How about you?

So, cherophobia, I believe many of you have never heard of this but it does exist. It's a kind of phobia that makes you feel afraid of happiness. When you have this, you tend to avoid being happy as many times as you could. You'll always have a constant fear of things might go wrong whenever things goes too smoothly.

Well it's up to you to believe this or not but as for me, I believe in this as I literally have this phobia. I noticed how in the past few years, I've been avoiding myself for being too comfortable when my life was at my best because I know that later, something bad will happen and since I've been betrayed quite a number of times, I would also avoid as many interactions as I could with people. Because for me, being surrounded does make me happy but it's no longer beautiful when you get betrayed. Over and over again.

I know it's bad to keep such things in life and I'm still trying my best to overcome this phobia. But it's not easy. Because it's not something that you can change physically. It takes a lot of effort, it requires a lot of support, it's a really long process and it's a painful journey. In the end of the day, I have to accept that it's normal to be happy. We're human beans, we deserve to be happy. Of course, we need to be sad too sometimes, and it's normal. It's normal to have feelings. I mean, that's what we are. There must be a reason we've been gifted with feelings. That's the thing that all of us have to know.